"FINALLY, a reason to LIVE! It's the LAGUNA BEACH marathon!"

I've figured out how I know when my life's going well. When my life's going well, I see some sort of TV marathon on, and I laugh to myself and say "Hahaha, what sort of fool has time for that?" When life isn't going so well, like today, I say "FINALLY, a reason to LIVE! It's the LAGUNA BEACH marathon!"

Now, the Laguna Beach marathon, which besides wasting several hours of my life today actually made me think. Ok, so this show is about a bunch of rich little girls and their overly pathetic rich girl lives. That part doesn't matter. What DOES matter is that they were graduating.

I'm graduating this year, and it took a Laguna Beach marathon to really make it sink in. I mean, yeah, I knew it was coming, but did any of us actually realize that life as we know it ends in May, 2006? It's so corny, I know, but things will never be the same after this year is over. We're going to stay friends, that much is true, but the time is rapidly approaching when we will begin our adult lives. I'm not ready to pay my own bills, or get up for work every day, or change lightbulbs, or kill big bad stingy bugs that try to get me. I don't WANT to pay for my own gas money, or groceries. I don't wanna have to figure out whether or not to evacuate for a hurricane. And I still need my mommy to make sure my hair looks good before I leave the house! Obviously, you don't get all this responsibility handed to you along with your diploma, but going to a four year college after graduation seems like just one more giant leap into the adult world that I really don't think I'm quite ready for.

THAT'S why I really think junior college is the right thing for me. It's not about my scholarships to Alabama Southern, it's not about saving up money for my junior and senior years of college...It's all about clinging to the life I have now as long as I possibly can. I'll have years and years to be an adult--right now, I still need to live at home, and be with my mommy and daddy.